The strength within

The good thing about having a daughter while being single is a blessing especially when you think that you are all alone. Nobody is totally alone in this world. At least that is what I thought of. There will always be someone watching including God. I have been feeling alone lately but luckily I have a daughter that keeps calling, "Mommy, mommy" the whole day. She made my loneliness go away.

Recently, a friend starts chatting with me at night regarding writing on HIVE again. I have been drowned in my loneliness, my incompetence, and my problems that I forgot to move on. I made myself watch drama or anime for hours except for the time I need to do house chores and take care of my daughter, just to keep my timetable busy. I have quite a small house and there is nothing much to do for the cleaning. Sitting in the middle of the house where I am currently writing this blog, to my left is the kitchen, and to my right is the living room where we sleep also. I kept the bedroom empty to dry my laundry under the fan. Working from eight to five on the weekdays and having only the weekend free for now, made me get used to indoor drying.

I am comfortable staying at home where I do not need to spend much money since we are financially unstable. It is going to be alright soon and I have been saying this for years. This time being a single parent everything will be a lot better soon.

I am grateful that I am blessed with a daughter that colors my days with a rainbow. She is the strength that I need to move on and the reason I still have my faith. She is a blessing and I can never explain my gratefulness for her existence.

I have been crying, a lot. I cannot stop the tears inside but gradually my feelings are getting better and I learned to be more easy on myself. I need to be better and I need to improve our quality of life for her. Forget the others and focus on my goals.

There are things that only I can do and nobody else can help out.

This is heartbeat1515 signing out for now until the next blog.