I never, ever believed alcohol in any amount was good for one's health. I was just a desperate alcoholic, locked in a room in pain and feeling hopeless but I am not ready to fight this shitty bladder disease for as long as it takes and cutting out booze is mandatory for that! :)

I have personally seen alcohol destroy the lives of so many, including my own family. I was in foster care because of alcoholism. It isn't as simple for me to cut it out. I am a raging alcoholic but I really do believe at the very core of myself that this is the last time. I feel ready. I imagine a life without alcohol and feel grateful instead of scared. :) This is it!