Firstly I'd just like to thank everyone on steemit for being so friendly and helpful.

• I've been on steemit for nearly 4 weeks now and i'm finally starting to understand and appreciate it a lot more now. It really is an amazing platform and the people who put their time,effort and even their own money into it,are so special themselves. I need to practice using markdown,having never used it before. So i thought i,d give it a go and write a few things about myself.

• About 2 years ago i had a heart attack,which changed my life in so many ways,i don't even know where to begin.So i'll go back about 10 years earlier so that you understand it more. At this point in time ,things were going good for me,i had a steady reliable job, i had just bought my second house and my second daughter was just a few months old.the year was 2004.My life was going fine,i was perfectly happy but things were about to change.This is the year when my life changed and started to go down hill.

• The first piece of bad news i heard was about my mother getting lung cancer,then my brother died at the age of 29. He had alcohol problems and was suffering from depression. Then one day he was rushed to hospital only to find out his stomach had ruptured and he had other internal problems. Despite the doctors best attempts,he unfortunately lost his life.

• Even though this happened over 12 years ago,i still remember it as if it where yesterday. The day it happened i was in work,it was just a normal day and i'd just went outside to eat a sandwich for my lunch,when i noticed the department manager approaching me holding a phone. Telling me "your mothers on the phone".
  I new straight away something was wrong because my mum never used to phone at work unless it was really important.When i first heard the news i was speechless it took time to really understand what had just happened and how significant it was. At first my brain could not understand this new,strange,surreal piece of information,or it was just incapable of admitting the reality of the truth it had just learnt. i don't know how long this took to happen seconds or minutes even,it felt like time itself had suddenly ceased to exist and i had entered into some unknown dimension.

• Three months latter my mother lost her battle with cancer and sadly died. This is where my life went from bad to worse,the starting point which was probably responsible for my heart attack 12 years later. At fist i thought i was handling the whole situation o.k,but soon realized this just wasn't true. I had started drinking more,first just at the weekend then through the week. This had started to affect the relationship with my partner and children,which resulted in me experiencing difficulties with my performance at work. Firstly my punctuality and attendance started to drop,going from excellent to poor. This was just the start,the next ten years of my life would be.........
  if any one would like to hear the rest of the story please let me know and i will write it and post it,or am i just wasting my time because nobody cares.