For staying here in 12 days i was able to write up my feelings. May father died last christmas, writting and reading some other posts here lessen the burden and hatred inside. As of now this is the only way where i can blow it off. This is such an awesome community! Thank you @damarth for making me realize how lucky i am for being here. You're one of our inspirations here, considering us - begginers here is a big help! May god bless you more.