Well My friends. It is with a heavy heart that I bid farewell for a while and honestly possibly permanently as my health tumbles. This is a poem to my love as you know and also a heart felt thank you to all of you. You are all my friends. I am forever grateful for the time here and the friendships made. I hope you all come back every once in a while to read my posts and I hope we have made an impact on your lives in a good way. I ask if you can resteem this post as I would be so thankful that my message reaches all of you. I will miss the digital bear hugs from you all my friends. When I came here to Steemit the intent was to just vent about my situation and the love that burns in my soul for @lynncoyle1. I am here to say that if any of you could ever meet her in person you would know that she was put here as that special angel to listen to all, never judgemental and her love is so real, so intense and will last a lifetime. I know that meeting her here is to her like meeting in person. The joy and the unique situation of Steemit makes this possible. I have seen her talk to me about you all. The tears , laughter or the squeal of delight she gets from stories and actually learning something new here. I know now why the moment I saw her I knew hat I had to have her. Love her, protect her and most of all worship her. Thank you my Babylooo.
To me steemit friends I wish you all a good life and those friends here fighting like me or struggling I will drop by and hold your hand if needed and say prayers each day.
I can say this now
WE LOVE YOU ALL
Poem 1 - TO MY FRIENDS HERE
What is the love of a Friend?
Friendship is a strong thread
Which can never be broken
It's a part of the spider web
That holds the web strong and tight
Friendship is everlasting
its a sign of accomplishment
And can only be destroyed
When death comes by
Friendship is like a delicate leaf
which is smooth soft and beautiful
Which once destroyed
Can never be the same again
It is a thing which connects
Two human souls with a bond of love
The strength that carries us through
Friendship is unbreakable
It strengthens with Love, affection and care.
It is the greatest gift anyone can give you
The gift of there heart as a friend
To you my Love (@lynncoyle1)
You know as I continue to fight this cancer
It feels like a war and I am losing ground
My heart is being pierced by a lancer
Its growing quiet and i hear no sound
My heart beats strong and my soul burns with fire
The body grows weak and on it the cancer will feast
It's in my heart and soul that tells me it's you I desire
so in those places I wage the war against this beast
The day will come when I no longer wake
Fear not as I see that determination in your face
But believe me you have made my world shake
Keep living your life and adventures like you are in outer space
I will worship you until hell freezes over and earth stands still
Even though in the end the Cancer has made it's kill
I am but a whisper away and should you ever need me
I am the Raven that swoops down wings spread for you to see
I am but a whisper that you can call when you are lonely and sad
No worries my love, I am here so there is no need to get mad
At night when you go to bed and slowly go to sleep
I am sitting on the edge of the bed so there is no need to weep
During the night you will toss and turn as you dream
Again no worries my love, I am holding your hand as we were a team
I will strive to still guide you further in your life
Because you Babylooooooooo were the most amazing wife
Continue to live as lifes lessons never cease to teach
Remember our walks along a beautiful Sandy white beach
So I sit and wait with our pets for you to arrive beside me
Then once again we can snuggle, chat and drink some tea
So when I die just lean over and kiss me one more time
Whisper in my ear some lovely words that rhyme
Goodbye is not a word for us when I pass from this cancer
Once it ends I will again be that funny awesome beautiful dancer
I will wait forever for you so do not rush to be with me
I am an angel thats here to help guide people up here for God to see
I will do this job as I have lived and always tried my absolute best
when you get there I can smile because I continued to do my best
So Live Love and Laugh My Babyloooo
Remember our dreams even the ones that fell short
Because its you that gave me the thrill of my lifetime
and even the sands of time could not change it
Thank you for the poem and for the courage you continue to show. Wishing you and Lynn all the strength in the universe as you fight this.
Thanks my amazing friend. You are a true friend who kept in touch and lifted my spirits in so many ways. More than I could ever say. You be safe and remeber in our one life to live, love and laugh
There is still hope Brian.
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inner fluids?
Thanks for the links. I'm big into natural remedies. I hate 5G & geoengineering.
your welcome... will do post soon.
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So beautiful..
Thank you
You have been an inspiration to us all Brain and Lynn as well. Prayers and Thoughts out to you both.
Brian I knew from Lynn that things were going worse from you, that and I hadn't heard from you on Discord. It's sad that you feel this might be your last post here, but glad you said we will keep in touch on discord. When you sent me the message yesterday I couldn't come here to read the post...odd right? Something that I knew was coming sooner or later, just kept holding out hope it would be later.
I have enjoyed our chats and becoming friends who have yet to meet in real life. Truly hope one day we get to grab that beer together.
I will still be on discord. Tell Wolfhart to keep well and fight hard. You my friend are an amazing person. Lokk ater your great family and I have something planned lol just for you. Beers we will have in this life or the next.
Funny you worded it that way about the beers, had it almost word for word like that and then changed it to try and stay more positive. Wolf hart is fighting hard and even came back to judge this week to give Lynn the week off. He said it would be good for him to have a mental break from everything. It's an off week for the Kemo so he has some downtime. Then he's back at the Kemo next week.
Not sure if I should be excited or scared....I remember what we did to Lynn with the clowns...so you having something planned for me could go either way...lmao.
I tossed in a vote since Brian was running low on ammo.
Thank you, saves the dust!
cant upvote. no voting strength lol. anyway my brother I am keeping positive but the blood in bathroom duties and i even spit it up. Thats scary but pat of the process. Much love
Keep strong brother. Sure all of it must be overwhelming at times. Just take a breath and look at Lynn and remember your Why.
You have not only been blessed with life, you have blessed so many others too. Thank you so much for being here and I know you and Lynn will never be forgotten by any of us!
Thanks so much my amazing friend, You keep the beack healthy and I pray you take your mom to many movies my brother. Look after my girl and if not in this life i will wait forever for us to have that cervaza in the sky. much love bro
I have not met you and Lynn before today. I am part of the steemitweekly team. Today we posted your story on our weekly. I can not imagine dealing with this. I can not even hold back the pain I feel for both of you.
Your story has touched me in a very profound way. Please don't lose hope, even in the worst circumstances we still can stay friends with hope. Hope is something we can keep close to us even after we have given up on everything else.
If you will stay hopeful and not forget that we don't know what is next after this shell we call a body is gone. Maybe we are just seeds and until we are planted in the earth we have not even been born? Maybe the beginning of life is what happens when we are buried? When we become one with the soil we came from? Just maybe there is no reason to be sad or sorrowful because we don't really know what is going on?
Please don't lose hope, please don't forget we are just like a blade of grass that withers in the sun.
There is so much more to this life than what we experience daily. So much we don't have a clue about.
I am a hard a calloused man, my life has been rough and without much mercy. I have faced more than most people can fathom but I still have not faced this. Our world is a brutal place from our finite knowledge of how things work. I hope we are all wrong about the end of the story.
So trust and hope that there is light at the end of the tunnel.
My family will keep you in our prayers.
@iamstan. Thank you. I am so exhausted. I will reach out after Thanksgiving if that's ok. Hugs
:(
Lynn definitely is a special woman and it does feel like we've gotten to meet you both in person. It would be great to actually meet you in person sometime, but even if that doesn't happen, our lives have been better for having known each other.
There's much in life that you can do to have fun, but oftentimes, the things that are the most enjoyed or fondly remembered are those that were done with a close friend. It's the people that make the occasion special. Thanks for your friendship over the last year, even encouraging me when I was having hard times.
Man, that's beautiful! I know Lynn will cherish those words for many years to come. Your love for each other is a great example for anyone who wants to know how a marriage is supposed to look.
Still praying for you to get more long walks on the beach together and to get that more dips in the ocean!
Our lives have definately been better for meeting here. Steemit has changed my life and in my heart I do believe and know that some people here will meet my girl face to face. I will remember not spending one dime on a date with Lynn and to this day it is my most precious memory. Truly that day burns in my soul. I wish our friendship could be so much longer but if not you to my friend have made my days encouraging too. I will forever be there to help guide all of the one that God allows me too. Peace my brother. Every day hug your wife tight as life is way to freakin short. Live, Love and Laugh every chance you get
@briancourteau no matter where you are you will always feel our digital hugs and as for @lynncoyle1, when I get to meet her there will be real hugs and maybe even some tears. You are a shining light and there is no way I'm going to say goodbye. XXXXXXX
Thank you for the not saying goodbye. I biggest fear is not dieing but being forgotten. Believe it or not that by far is my one fear. Thank you my dear friend. Make sure you meet my girl someday. I told her to do like the steve miller song. Take the money and run. Meet these friends. lol hugs and well wishes. I will still be on discord for a while I hope
OMG there is no way in the world you will be forgotten, you have no idea how much your story has touched me and many others and we will always have your posts here on the block. And yep I do hope one day I will get to meet your girl, it would me my honor and pleasure :-)
Not sure what to say here, other than stay strong!
PS: Beautiful poem!
No words needed my friend. Just taking the time to read this makes me smile. If you had a chance you could visit Lynns post for all our story. Anyway Thank you and in ife just live each day happy. its way too short regardless
Brian,
My heart is with the both of you here. You are insanely brave and inspiring. You’ve touched the hearts of so many here. Thank you fir allowing us a peek into your personal life. We can all learn a world from you. ♥️
very gracious words my friend. They made me speachless. Thank you
I’m humbled brother, but we are the ones in awe.
What a beautiful poem, in such difficult circumstances. We all have to face our mortality, but only a very few of us are able to look it straight in the eye and face it with courage, offering strength for our loved ones.
your words have brought me to tears. Thank you so much for the most beautiful comment Ihave read today. You have given me motivation today
Thankyou Brian. They were inspired by your beautiful poem.
Unfortunate that I just got to know you now via this post, yet you do seem to be a great guy with a wonderful lady beside you.
Never give up man, faith and will can be great life changers, I believe in miracles and the body's power of healing, we live in a mystical world that science is far from completely (or even minimally) comprehending.
Fight, fight, fight and stay strong ! I do hope to keep reading you again :)
Been too tired this week to respond. Thank you so much my friend. I fight to fight another days
@braincourteau, normally I have so much to say....its difficult to say goodbye. You are eternalized in my mind and on the Steem blockchain. Yes, I will go back and read all the old stuff but for now I'll focus my energy towards you and Lynn. Thank you both for sharing this with me (us).
Digital bearhugs from me and Leila (and Bandit and Oscar)
ps: Your poems are great. Mixed feelings tho... It makes you cry and smile at the same time
"Friendship is everlasting
its a sign of accomplishment
And can only be destroyed
When death comes by"
We will keep the friendship alive.....
I truly have not answered this comment. It is so emotional in so many ways. I am amzed that ou will always go back to read and I give just as many hugs back to you and all of you. Hug Bandit and Oscar and tell them I will be at the rainbow bridge with my dogs and they can hang with me.
This is the very first post that I have read on this site and my heart both swells and breaks for your fortune. You obviously have a beautiful heart and have been blessed with an equally beautiful partner. My thoughts and good wishes are sent your way during this awful time. Please continue to fight as this earth cannot afford to lose such a beautiful soul.
I sent you something too. Thank you my dear new friend. Steemit is an awesome place. Visit my girl @lynncoyle1 for any help you need. She is the angel here on the platform. To me anyway.
Good to hear from you again. I am very happy to see you both together and loving each other. That is something that most of the rest of the world will never experience.
Love at first sight.
Makes you soar like an eagle in flight.
Till death do us part.
A pledge not many take too heart.
A love burning so hot, a feeling taking you so high.
Much like Icarus's last flight, but this is not goodbye.
Fear not getting your new wings and meeting St. Peter at the gate.
I know in my heart of hearts that you will tell him you can not enter without your true love and there you will wait.
.
We love ya brother and we are all hoping for a miracle every day.
this is so beautiful. I am thankful my friend for meeting you. I am not afraid of dieing but of have my soul alone until the day she comes to me. I hope its a long time of course but where ever I am it feels like a second. much love and please stay close to lynn. many tough roads ahead. Much love my good friend, much love
A lot of us have been talking about your post and about @lynncoyle1's posts... we're all so very moved and touched by what you're going through that we don't have the words to respond. I just deleted, re-pasted, edited and re-edited the last sentence 3 times just to finally make it be right.
It's probably still not right. Here's what I've been wanting to tell you both for days. I hope it comes out okay...
Brian- your dignity and grace in the face of the Great Inevitable is so unbelievably... so gut-wrenchingly, heartbreakingly beautiful. Thank you for showing us how to do it so well. I hope that when my time comes, I will be able to invoke some of the strength you've shown here. I admire you so much. I'm just sorry I never found you until now because I bet, back before getting ready to die became your main focus in life, you were a total badass facing all the other crap life tosses at us. I hope that you know how meaningful it is that you're sharing this part of your life with us here. You are on your way TO something wonderful, as awful as it is to be on your way AWAY from your family.
@lynncoyle1... babe... please remember that death isn't bad news for the dying. It's just that it hurts so bad for us that stay behind to miss our friends. If you haven't already seen this old poem, I hope it will help... if you have, I hope it will remind you that Brian is about to embark on a new journey that you, yourself will join him on eventually. Please keep doing what you're doing. It's the exact, right, perfect thing! We love both of you very much so whenever it gets darkest, remember that we're all right here.
To everyone else who is struggling to write a meaningful comment, it's not your fault. We're trained to revile death. It's the worst boogieman ever in a lot of cultures and that training is total bullshit! We can't even say "he died".. we say, "he passed away" or some other such flowery nonsense. If you're finding it hard to tell Brian and Lynn your feelings because you're worried about how best to construct them appropriately, remember this: there is nothing more appropriate than dying. It is what we all will do. Don't let the words trip you up. Reach out now while you have the chance to. And While you're at it, hug your kids, call your moms and treat yourself to a second helping of dessert. It's later than you think!
I will answer this next week. I am in awe at your words. Literally blown away. I want to word my response as elegant and beautiful as yours
@briancourteau dammit, you made me cry at work. Hang on to her as long as you can. You know I only want peace for you and no more suffering. Of course the best for both of you. Yes, I hope this is just a dip and you'll bounce back, especially since I haven't gotten to come to meet you. No matter what I will go to Mike 'The Headless' Chicken festival just for you.
I truly love both of you like family and always want the best for you guys. As always your poems are amazing. 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
Sorry for making you cry. I know you wish peace for me but honestly the pain I have is worth every breath I share with Lynn. You know what I have never called her Lynn ever you know that. Ask her. She is always and forever my Babyloooo
I would be the same way, fighting until my last breath. Don't be sorry. I'm just over sentimental these days. I don't want you to stop fighting. I want you two to have as much time as you can squeeze out.
brian, we don't know each other, but what you have written has really touched many,
thank you for positively impacting so many people all over the world with your presence here......you're a gift to this world, and i'm sure many are better off because of you
may you have peace and love surrounding you in your journey
I have no words and for me thats a rarity. I cannot thank you enough for your comment. You have made my day, given me strength. Thank you my friend and please read my girls blog lynncoyle1. she likes new friends too. Peace
Lovely poem Brian.
I'm a little lost for words, but thinking of you both. x
you at a loss for words. Just kidding my friend. I jast ask that you keep doing, keep living. You are a awesome friend and one I know my girl will need. When does one in life meet her favorite good egg on a platform.
🙊
Totally poor choice of words there, apologies and thanks for making a joke!
It would be a pleasure to meet you both, and again, thank you for sharing your time with us.
no no no.....I loved your comment. I was joking with you lol. I meant nothing by my joke
Yes I gathered, an excellent way to take my embarrassment away - a sign of a good man :)
A very touching post and poetry as well. Made me a bit emotional and helped me reflect a bit. Thank you for sharing your light with us. Much love to you friend.
You my friend were one of my first friends here. Thank you for the time, the eyes here by reading my story. I am forever grateful.My girl will have many a tough road ahead. help her along if you can
You're welcome. And understood. Thank you as well. <3
I am quite in shocked and not sure what to say but you are very brave to share this with the community. Beautiful poem and I wish you both all the best and strength. Kind of lost for words after reading this.
Well you could read older ones and you should read my girls lynncoyle1 posts, thanks for reading and actually any feelings in a comment are worth sharing. Peace
Keeping you in my prayers Brian. Thank you for sharing your heart with us again.
thanks my friend. Your words too Lynn are thoughtful. I do still think of your dad along with mine almost daily. Your chats with me have helped me deal with things sometimes differently and peaceful. Thanks and stay in touch with Lynn ok please. She has a hard road ahead
Good luck to you. Beautiful poem.
beautiful comment. Much thanks. Live life each day smiling
Thank you for the good cheer. I will do it!
This is so touching. I am sure everyone reading shed a few tears, I know I did. I am so sorry you are going through this. Stay strong.❤️
Thank you for reading my post. I have come to terms with it all. I am not afraid to die but to leave my girl is hard. Remember to live life always to the fullest. dont let anyone change you. just
LIVE, LOVE, and LAUGH
I hope you get better soon. What a beautiful poem. I would be sad to lose talent like that and the warm comforting spirit it came from.
Much Love and Healing! I believe in you guys! May your paths be smooth and straight.
very very beautiful words. Thanks my friend, truly
So very beautiful. It speaks to me without words. Much much thanks.
Brian, this is my first hello message to you and possible my good bye. I have been communicating with Lynn all the time and am aware of your situation. It's really sad to read this, from someone whom I've never met, but feels like I know pretty well. I hope that with what time you have left, every moment will be filled with beautiful memories that you and Lynn and your family will cherish for forever. Stay strong.
So much love in your comment and its very muc appreciated. I ffight to fill my time exactly as you stated, with memories and love
Nice to hear from you once more.
I'm wiping off tears after reading that beautiful poem. Not so long ago a person I (and many others) valued a lot has lost his life.
Again, I wish @lynncoyle1 and you a lot of strength.
I am exhausted this week. I will answer next week. Sorry
No problem.
oh God... #sobs <3 <3
No sobd my friend. Thank you for being with us and me on my journey
This almost moved me to tears. I wish you strength to fight and come out of this with your head held high. I wish to hear from you again.
I always fight wit my head high. Thank you for yur comment and its these types that keep me motivated
I haven't had the pleasure of knowing you or Lynn, but I have had the pleasure of sharing this platform with you both; I'm sorry to hear of what you're going through together.
much thanks my new firend. its the platform that keeps me fighting
Hopefully that small upvote will contribute to the medical bills; and I hope things improve for you, Brian. Keep fighting!
I am speechless 💔💔💔
I don't know you very well but I follow you babyloo and I can attest to the fact that she is a wonderful person. She supported me during my early stage on this platform and I am forever grateful. Please cherry these last moments with her. Say everything and have as many laughs as you can.
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I too am speechless. great words you took the time to write. You stay in touch with Lynn my girl. She will need her friends here. Thank you
This isn't a goodbye, @briancourteau, because friendship can never be destroyed, in spite of what you say in your poem. You and @lynncoyle1 both have changed my life and my vision of it forever. Your strength, courage and love for life and each other inspires me every day again. It's something I will carry with me and try to pass along to others. You have made a difference - you still do. And no way I will forget that - ever!
A big virtual hug for you, and give one to your lovely wife from me too. Xxx
You are truly a great friend here. Thank you for being with me for my journey. I am ok and content. I fight each day but the energy is hard to keep. The problem is I am ok with death but certainly not ok with leaving my soul mate and love of my life. Thanks. here is something cool that someone here sent us
courtesy of uynimeetuk
Thanks. I can't even imagine what you both are going through, but I can understand that it takes a lot of energy to keep fighting every day again. And that having to leave your soulmate is one of the hardest things to do. If only I'd be religious, I could at least say I'd pray for you both. But I'm not religious at all, so I can only tell you you're both in my thoughts and my heart, and that I wish you all the courage and strength you need xx
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appetite for health and covetousness for love … thank you
thanks my friend
See you around after January? :)
perfect motivating words
Hello
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hello, thanks
Çok güzel şiir ve okurken çok duygulandım yüreğine sağlık
hopefully thanks
Dear BRIAN,
Have you tried Turmeric ? 2 Guanabana 3 alkaline water .
lynn looking into it for me. much thanks
@briancourteau, it is so short time for me to know you much better, I wish and I pray to see you little more time. Big hug!, it is really hard time for all of us to say goodbye for you, but you are always in my heart and our heart. I Love you from the bottom of my heart. I pray for your peace!
thanks so much. the words are veri helpful in my fight. motivates me. much love friend
Wish you well sir, beautiful 🙏
Im not familiar w your situation but please check out fasting & cancer. I just finished a 23 day fast.
Blessings to you and yours.
actually have tried lots of things. Just believing i am needed elsewhere. Thanks for the blessings. Much thanks
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Best of luck and be happy together♥️
Thanks
Treasure what should be enjoyed. Move with contentment. Be happy in every moment and support those who you love.
beautiful words and much thanks my friend
Brian, you and @lynncoyle1 are very special people. You have opened your hearts and shared the toughest time in your lives. When it would be easy to shut yourselves away in self-pity, you have showed us that your love is true, solid and an inspiration to others.
When your time comes, it will not be goodbye, for you are a true Warrior with an honourable and fighting spirit, and I have no doubt, we shall meet again in Valhalla.
We will take good care of @lynncoyle1
These words brought me tears my amigo. my friend. Thanks for the saying I am a warrior, actually I am a guy who loves his girl so much I am terrified to kiss her goodbye, I do hope we meet again in Valhalla.
Peace, Love and Light to you. We shall all remain forever immortal on the Blockchain !
I am thankful of the blockchain
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Thanks so much. will contact you when back after 23rd
@briancourteau Happy to hear that. I'll be here waiting for you.
Nice post Brian. I was really touched with every word you said. I'm so happy for you that you have met someone very special and someday I hope that I will to. I will upvote/resteem this post so that others can read as well. I've followed you to read more of your posts in the future. I hope that you will do the same. Have a good day @briancourteau!
❤️
much love back