It felt like society bailed on me from the very start. I didn't learn certain social skills that most people do from a young age. I found myself in a cyclical loop of people being mean to me. Moved around too much to ever establish a good circle of friends. In short, there was nothing keeping me attached to society. Not even a good paying job with a great tech firm.

I can feel my brainwaves changing every day, and I'm more and more self-aware of self-destructive patterns. Its so much easier to let them go, when I have such a positive place to direct my energy.