what if we loved more

what if we all loved more

what if we started a side gig where we just held each other
a part time / full time hugger

what if there was a role or position or society where you could press a button, like you do with uber and someone would show up and ask how you felt

what if we had the courage to be honest with each other??

why are we buying so much shit?
buy buy buy buy buy

it's dumb
i'm jealous

i want to buy things
i want to be normal
i want to have friends

i can't buy things
i don't want to buy your things
i can't afford to buy your things

fuck you yes i can
i have money
my money is real ... it works, I can buy things

i just know
it doesn't work
i've tried

i promise
i did try once
i bought lots of things

i had lots of things
i wasn't happy

i remember it
i smiled all the time

every moment until the one were i had to take a break
til that moment when life slowed down and things got quiet

my smile started to fade
it wasn't happiness

it was just dopamine and adrenaline

i remember real happiness though

it was kneeling in the garden
pouring my love and soul and joy into these plants

plants are always friendly ... i think at least

there is nothing like it though
watching something grow day by day

maybe that's how parents feel
god i hope i can do that one day

but it's surreal
magical
every day, this magical growth occurs

i know there are reasons for it
but it's still magic to me

what if we loved more

it doesn't have to be that much
just a bit every day

it doesn't hurt
it's tough sometimes but it doesn't hurt

what if we loved more