“Or maybe that's just what seemed worthwhile at the time. For a long time I didn't even believe in earning money. I only wanted to help people for free, and receive help for free. Co-operative living meets lazy hedonism, and social awkwardnes”
I had a very similar experience. I didn’t feel there was much hedonism and the laziness was kind of part of the detox process, getting all the brainwash out. I have since realized that if I want to promote the gift economy to those using money, I can do much more to promote it if I have money to go live among those people and I don’t have to sell out and work for some corporation. Steemit is making it a hell of a lot easier though, I relate to everything you say.
Well, the lazy hedonism part probably comes from my a reaction to my christian fanatical youth... Another thing that likely held back my social progress, or .. idk it's a chicken and the egg sort of thing
Maybe your lazy hedonism is what made your parents fanatical Christians?
No no... My parents aren't fanatical, they are just regular christians. I was a zealot, and later became a lazy hedonist after i read too many books