Those are good questions to reflect on. I didn't mind my job some days either but I saw so many negative changes coming to the workplace. I was starting to experience a bit of agism too even in my mid-forties. Younger people were given priority for new jobs/raises/promotions. Many of those I considered my "good work friends" weren't pictured but the department I worked in was mostly female. It was like that almost my entire career. Viper pit could be really accurate sometimes! I handed out so much chocolate to help keep people happy. Lol. There was a lot of talking behind peoples' backs and just plain bad behavior. Looking back on it now, I know it was just because people were so generally unhappy. A happy person doesn't usually behave that way. The woman at the head of the table was my first manager and she was the one who hired me from the mailroom in 1996 and then hired me back in 2014. I owe a lot of my success to her because without those opportunities I would never be where I am today. Thank you Nancy! Enjoy your weekend!