Thanks @vanessamidwife! I'm going to answer her next. I totally agree with you. There is so much beyond the physical. Have you read Born in Zion? It was written in the 80's but an incredible book. I read it many years ago and it opened my eyes although I have always wanted a natural birth. I dream of being a midwife. Our Father has a sense of humour as He allows me to deliver animals on our farm instead