Seeking in rhythm: A newbie's life

"To dream is to live, and to pursue is to keep on living." Josefa Hanabella Valiente

Good day everyone, I'm a newbie here. If you want to know me more, come and enjoy with me to explore and to know more about myself.

Photo taken during recognition day:with honor students (grade 11)

Hi Hivers @itsmary,18 years old with a height of 4'11, I know I'm small but I think its enough for a forehead kiss, kidding aside. I'm not the eldes or the youngest but im the middle child. I'm a graduated students in Ilihan Integrated School who took a strand of Accountancy Business and Management (ABM).I am the middle child that everyone says the one who are the most distant child in the family, you know why? They didn't see my achievements, they only see my mistakes every time I make an action that they didn't like or want. Not a dramatic one but thats what I've felt as a middle child. But even if they treat me like that im blessed also to them for giving birth on me, atleast I see the world where I live right now.

No bodies perfect, thats what I believe, in every achievements I achieve theres always a reason why I need to take a risk just for my dreams. Every one always talked about the firts card and not the last card, what about the last card?, sometimes I always tell to my self that I can't see myself fallen because the first card already disappoint them. The pressure is on me, the responsibilities that the first card must do is already on me. Sometimes, we can't have what we want but that doesn't mean the destiny is unfair, we can't have it because theres a perfect time and much better than the first one. My family is not perfect, my mother and my father got separated since I was in grade 7. After they separate my father still always updating us and give all our needs specially if theres an event in school and need some payments, not until one day my father didn't call us or even give us a text of whats happening why he stop providing us.

It's difficult at first since my mother do not have a work and she also have a weak body, but because of the situation my mother goes to the city to find a job to provide our needs. I was a grade 9 that time and my elder sister was graduating in grade 10 and my younger brother was in grade 7. We didn't loose hope, until I graduate in grade 10 still our father didn't call or even asking how are we. But lately I realize, I dont need him anymore since he's the one who left first and we can stand on our own feet even if he's not with us, were contented of what we have also to our mother who give her best just to provide our needs. I always take that as my inspiration to achieve my goals in life.

This picture taken during graduation day: with honor students (grade 12)

Way back when I was in grade 12, in the graduation day. I received a certificate as a with honor. Everyone enjoy and cherish that day because after that we will face a new journey with no more best friends in our side, so after the graduation we celebrate the achievements we got. I didn't expect a message to the one person, he said that he's proud of us despite those challenges we overcome even if he's not with us. I question my self, did he deserve my forgiveness? He's my father in the first place, but to be fair I didn't responds to him just for respect. Because if I responds maybe I will give him a hurtful words that he can't forget, kidding aside.

PASSION AND HOBB

*My hubby is playing mobile game, sleeping, singing, and I love also playing chess. Playing mobile games makes me out of boredom, I'm playing it just to pastime when I have nothing to do.

Photo taken during try out (grade 11)

Playing chess also my hubby, while playing ,it makes me think for more moves although im not really into thinking, just kidding. In playing chess you will realize that you need to protect the king no matter what happens even if you sacrifice the queen itself just to win. But the saddest part is, when you know to yourself that your going to be the winner but the reality hit you hard because of that wrong moves you lose your chances to win.Sometimes, life can be hard. Things don't always go the way we want, and it can feel like everything is against us just like they said, " Whenever will be, will be" .There are days when you feel tired, stressed, or even lost.Everyone goes through tough times. It doesn't mean you are weak, it is just a sign that you're trying.

WHO INTRODUCED ME TO HIVE?

Joining in here is not my intention but after @callmesmile introduced hive to us that when we join in hive we can learn more in english and we can enhance our english not only in writing but also in knowing what sentence have the wrong grammar. That words got my interest and willingness to join hive, I know to my self that even if I have a knowledge in English it doesn't mean I'm really good at it. I love writing and reading also when its all about daily life , travel or food. I want to learn and gain more knowledge of how people make their selves more admirable.

Im very thankful to @callmesmile for giving this opportunity to be a apart of the hives.I don't expect to have a good experience here since I was new but I try my best to get those and for the support of others I can make it. In first try, maybe theres a challenges I may face, difficulties, pressure and other things that can make me have a lack of interest or to distract me not to do what I want even though I love doing that thing. But if I wanted to, I would theres always a solution to every problem.