"ULOG About Health: Are you one of those? Have problem like I have? Depression Is my big enemy" (SO sharing of this to feel better maybe one of you have this problem)

in #philippines6 years ago (edited)

The most hurting part of my life is to have a problem in my spinal cord that can cause paralyze :(,
But most hurting part is after two months I give birth to my son I have this problem and even cannot take my son in my arms that's the most hurting part if you are a mother, When I see any mother carried there child I can only look with envy that I cannot carried my child anymore because is not allowed to me to cargo any heavy objects due to my condition:(.
People see me that I'm strong and healthy outside but inside is killing me slowly , because maybe I don't show what I feel and still bring smile and act normal due to my condition but when I'm alone I feel depress and don't go out for a month only stay in bed, When I see sunlight and people I feel like melting and very awkward with scared like they eat me, My depression hobbit is to eat more and more and don't see that I gain so much weight and that's not allowed to me to gain weight because of my back problem, Because in that moment only eating makes me happy and comfort of my sadness.

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In This Photo Show How Dangerous my condition that my lumbar 5 disc go out and get stuck to my nerve.
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How many years past after so many check up, MRI, The doctor said the same opinion that I must undergo surgery,
I make 5 opinion to different doctor and they have the same answer :(,
But I don't follow there decision due to financial problem and do only physical theraphy that maybe any miracle happened to my condition,
At first I had so much pain that I cannot even walk and also 2 times have problem because of my condition another problem is to have scoliosis too my body not straight and equal I spend my life lying down while giving breastfeed to my son and take so many pain killer to live normal life and go to therapist place and also go to my son pediatrician for his check up too,
I cannot stand long and sit long only lying down is the purpose when I cannot drink pain killer,
I dont stop to my therapy and do recommend exercise everyday to straighten my back and feel better ,
I make everyday what doctor say and right now I feel better but still my back condition is the same I have only less pain I can walk any hours and sit too but mostly lying down is more convenient,
I don't take pain killer now I must only careful and strict of my doing, My son is Now 3 years old and still I cannot take him. IN my condition I do everything what makes me happy and enjoy life like no more tomorrow so if one day I cannot walk anymore and paralyzed I do my the best in last moment so I will be not regret in the end.

The most important now for me that I can take care him and my husband even I have this problem, But if ever in the future we Have money I think I still go for surgery if its not to late for me :(, and I dont know how to find sponsor charity for this :(, Guys maybe you can help me for vote this and reestem this my story because every coins I have is for my saving for my condition and if ever I have the exact money I can go to surgery as soon as possible :(, please upVote and comment is big help for me . better ask vote than asking money to other people.

"HEALTH IS WEALTH"
(Even you have millions, billions you can not buy health, Money Can be gone but ones your health gone you cannot fix it 100% anymore, Only miracle and trust to the lord can heal you,
That's what I believe in the past but now still hoping that maybe anybody can help my condition financially and do the risk for surgery to live normal again.)

Ps: So sorry for my grammar I hope you still understand.

Thank you Guys! please vote and reesteem this if you have only time.
Godbless us all!

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wow thank you for any info sir, Godbless!

My condition is worse than yours.. i have multiple scoliosis.. t5,t12,l5 plus i was stabbed at back most nerve was cut even my windpipe (throator in btwn clevage was cut, cant talk no voice come out—/ tragic happen to me way back 1997.. ) totally paralyzed.. repair only my throat .. by the Grace of my Almighty God He is my healer..
me too i testify write my testimony and share it in this platform..

wow Thank you mam God is really great, I feel more confident and positive that I will be ok, You will be one of my example that really all is possible by God, Thank you mam for sharing that not only me struggle to this situation and you have more worst than me, Thank you for sharing GOdbless you and stay healthy!.:)

Be strong.. have more faith as i have told you.. i already had scoliosis for so long ..after a tragic accident .. mri diagnosed me as brown cychard syndrome,pneumonia, multiple scoliosis.(aside from this .i have rhinitis.. frequent got colds - running nose.)because of the tragedy .. bec of hemmorage at the back of my head after 2 months i discovered my left eardrum was broken- so again am prone to infection..
.. really a long testimony of mine..

You can check on this:
This is the link to my part 1 of Life Series :
Thorn In My Flesh Part 1 Catietan Life Series](https://steemit.com/christian-trail/@catietan/thorn-in-my-flesh-part-1-catietan-life-series) --- by @catietan

Thorn Is the link to my part 2 of life series:
Thorn In My Flesh Part 2 Catietan Life Series ](https://steemit.com/christian/@catietan/thorn-in-my-flesh-part-2-catietan-life-series ) --- by @catietan

I check this mam,,because aside of scoliosis mam I have bulging disc problem and this scoliosis make more worst my condition..but now i feel a little better than before :).Thank you! Pinapasa dyos kunalang kalagayan ko :) natatakot naman po ako na experimentuhan ako ng doctor baka mas grabe pa yung mangyari sakin.

Scoliosis.. slip disc , compression of spinal cord.. super S shape ako as n no balance kase am super “S-sexy” hehehe . Asking the Lord why? He has a reason .. tragic accident nadagdagan nanaman .. need operation ng spine ko.. no.. the Lord gave a way.. through hilot not albularyo but a gifted hilot with same faith and trust God the healer.. am still in the process of recovering but daily i just trust God everything.. any time am ready if He end my life.. after all everything i am.. i belong to Him..

hala nakaka relate ako sayo mam kasi nung nagstop ako mg pa doctor because they have the same opinion that i must undergo operation talagang nag big no ako kahit family ko kasi baka mwala lng sa hilot2 at theraphy ,pero talagang totoo yung healer na my trust ky God kasi bumuti ako pa unti2 kahit minsan my sakit ako naramdaman sa likod ko pero mas mabuti na kysa umpisa medyo same tayo mam kasi na S then yung baywang ko hindi na equal hay naku. for now mam nag eexercise ako minsan bumibisita ako sa siquijor para magpahilot sa faith healer na talagang effective, he give me any oinment to relieve the pain..talagang effective and by the grace of our lord :)..every morning I just only prayed na kung anu man yung nangyayari sakin alam ko my malaki kang rasun kung bakit nangyayari to sakin at ikw na bahala sakin. ang importanti sakin ngayon nasa tabi parin ako ng anak ko nakikita ko siyang lumalaki. :)

I aldo have problem with lumbar #5. I am being treated by a Gonstead Chiropractor. He has given me great relief from pain and numbness. Maybe a Chiropractor could help you as well.

Thank you!..for the Idea. I wanted to go to but for now I must save money for it. Godbless!