I am in a certain point in my life in which I feel very angry with death that I cannot think of it in a poetic and spiritual way.

I'm sorry to hear that, Val.
I understand your feelings, one day eventually a scar will remain and you'll rejoin with yourself at the end of time.
Today I write this, tomorrow I could deny it.. everything changes and flows. Take care and thanks for your deep comment and talking about yourself like a real friend.