It picks you up and knocks you down
Throw my heart up in the clouds
Now watch it plummet to the ground
The paint peels off and dulls your armour
A boy on a horse, you're nothing more
.
The butterflies still fly about
But stay away from this loveless drought
How dare you take what's left of me
and use me for your fantasies?
Fairy tales are fake, you see
No one is ever "meant to be"
How many princes can you see?
You're sweetened words cannot fool me
.
Don't need no knight in shining armour, I wanna make an impact
Don't want them pretty little flowers, but I need a little respect
Don't need no magic fairy god mom
I need to do this on my own.
I've gotta do this on my own
.
You picked my feet up off the ground
I never thought you'd let me down
With all this pain that you've caused,
My heart bleeds hatred from your claws
I act like everything's okay
But I've got so much more to say
.
But once this hate subsides
Is it worth the try
Worth the time?
To change our lives and restart everything
Is it worth a try?
And when we change our minds
Is it worth the pain
worth the cry?
With a beat up heart
and shattered faith
Is it worth the pain?
.
.
And when you close your eyes
am I on your mind
All the time?
Or is it just me
Who still sees
You in my sleep?
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PHOTO #1: https://goo.gl/images/FCzeEF
PHOTO #2 IS AN ORIGINAL DRAWING
This made my eyes well up a little... I love to see people releasing heavy emotions through writing and it's part of what I teach - although it's a difficult read I know that the pain infused into these words is much better out than in.
Thanks for sharing these pieces... I know it can be hard to bare parts of your soul with the whole world - but your words are medicine for others out there feeling the same.
Looking forward to more. Good to be on this journey with you.
With Love
Hart Floe Poet
<3
Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment ((: It makes my day that I could write something capable of reaching someones emotions. I find the best time to write is during times of extreme anguish. It's like your soul is released and every burden you carry gets a little lighter. All of my writing is negative and miserable but I think that might be the only way I can keep the good in.
It's my pleasure! I have a lot of 'dark' poetry too that I wrote in a difficult time - Now I am through that I read some of it and think... "Was I really feeling THAT bad?!' -
I feel that the release through pen and paper is what helped me to get through it all to the place I am now.
SO keep writing. You may have a hell of a load more poetry to get out before it's all gone but... you will be freed of the grief and pain eventually... you have to believe that, ask for it too from the Universe - it will provide what you need to fully release everything.
PS - I recommend seeking out something they call 'Holotropic Breathwork' - or just Breathwork. It saved me from some toxic emotions I'd been storing inside without realising... it's very powerful stuff!
Thanks for these beautiful exchanges... I look forward to staying in touch over this time and the years ahead <3
With Love
Hart Floe Poet
<3
It's funny, when I go back and read my old poetry it tends to be when I'm in the exact same situation as before. It's strange but maybe it's because I only turn to poetry and writing when I'm lost in darkness.
I will definitely look into holotropic breathwork, I'd love to learn some techniques for releasing all the nonsense trapped in my head. My perspective needs adjustments... The power of perspective... It's like the key to happiness until it becomes delusional :p
Thank you so much for being so kind and supportive it's much appreciated (: I'd love to follow you on discord if you've got one. I haven't quite gotten into it yet but I see it's sort of the only personal messenger for the platform other than steemchat
These two lines stood out to me :)
With all this pain that you've caused,
My heart bleeds hatred from your claws
Thank you haha it's funny I made a video of me singing that line I did some cringe worthy claw gesture and ruined the whole thing 😂 I wanna throw up everytime I watch it.
It is not always easy to watch oneself on film. I do not look like my mother but I have her facial expressions and I can't stomach seeing myself talk because of it it literally repulses me . I am totally fine with pictures though it is what it is ...
I can definitely understand that. I look alot like my grandma and I can't stand her... So I can hardly look at myself when my hair is her color. Funny how that works. As I get older I seem to look more and more like her. 😒
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Keep writing good post.