The notepad chases me, making demands, asking for words. So I force myself to write, I decide to write about what lead me to write, but this is useless, my thoughts are useless.
My thoughts are not useless!
So why do I insist on calling them that!?
I'm useless, I do not work for society, I do not earn coins, I'm just a useless behind a screen. With words with no meaning, full of confused and meaningless conclusions. Complain about people not understand my words, but I do not understand myself, how can I think in write.
I stop for a moment and reflect ...
Well ... At least I don't use bots, at least those who read me really try to understand me.
I'm not here for the money, I'm here to speak of myself, so that my cries are read, so that I myself can listen.
I'm just an egoist.
No!!
I can not be selfish.
I can not be a human.
I have to be a monkey.
18/02/2018, macaco
This is interesting. It's clear there's a tension between your animal and intellectual and, between your need to express and the hopelessness of any attempt at expression. Keep at it!