Boo's Daily - 29 September 2022 - My Choice

It's been a roller coaster ride over the past few months. I have been trying to go to Canada to work with my cousin and set up a company there.

But things didn't fall through. I didn't win the clients that I needed in order to make the dream to move to Canada come true by 2023. So now, I have to somehow find a way to be a published writer in order to head to Canada.The plan is simple. Be a published writer. Then go to Canada. The target year is 2030.

But it can be any time after. I've been depressed over the past few weeks because things didn't work out as planned. But I think that's just how the greats have to go through these failures in life to get to somewhere better. I believe in my dream. I know there are countless obstacles in the way and if I can just believe that God is on my side, I won't be so worried.

I watched a motivational talk by The Rock to LA Lakers rookies. He said to keep the disappointments and the anger of not making it close to your heart. That will really help to get yourself more fired up to do even better. He said that he tore something really important in his leg when he was wrestling John Cena and he was asking God to carry him through the match. I didn't know he was a God person. But that's beside the point.

The point is... I have been through a lot of pain and suffering these past few years. I got to keep that close to my chest because the fire will keep burning as I struggle to make things work. I know that the world is a better place just because I exist. That doesn't say that I am better than anybody else. I am saying that everybody in the world should think the same.

That is not to say that it is egoistic or thinking that you are some hot shot. I just mean that everybody in the world matters. That everybody that exists on Earth is meant to be who they are meant to be.

It's always better to live your life privately. But I have not chosen to do so with Twitch, this novel journey and also what I feel is a life that is in the limelight. It's what I chose and I will have to accept it. I find that everybody else that is not in the limelight is better off that way. It's far easier that way. I chose what I chose and I just want to know that it is what it is. My choice.