HELP ME BOUNCE BACK TO WHO I USE TO BE

in #stach4 years ago

Can't believe I have stayed days without making a post here.

I have been home, but no inspiration at all.
Nothing is motivating me and I feel so uncomfortable about it. I have tried to get something done and at the end, I find myself not being able to get it done.

Consistency is one big thing that keeps anyone who wants to succeed going but at the same time, it is the hardest thing to keep.

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Today is a new day and I just came back from church then I am here staring at my blog and wondering what is happening to me.
Making a post this days is very tough for me and I feel sad ,very sad.
I need motivation, I need to be inspired, it can be anything.

When you want to inspire me, let it be from your heart. Let it flow deeply from your inner mind, I will see it, I will feel it and I will connect with you.

You are free to motivate me, you are free to inspire me, I will be here waiting for you to inspire me.

This is myself, this is who I am, this is what I feel and this is what I want right now.
You can tell me a story, you can give me hints but let it be good hints.

I have been like this for day's, nobody is going to be happy like this.

A lot has happened already from the past weeks but i am still here, I just want to put myself together and come back to who I use to be.
If you love me, inspire me please, motivate me please.
Let me be your project, make me feel like a king again.

Show me that you care, don't wait until I am no more.
This is just that opportunity you have got.
Let me be here to tell you all my dreams and if in case there is no tomorrow.

I love chicken, get it for me now, don't be too busy for me.
I love watching football, take me out so we can watch Barcelona play.
I love fruits, buy them for me now.
Make me feel loved and special. I just simply hope I am not asking for too much.

But if I am asking for too much, I am sorry, this is me, this is how I feel.
This is who I am.

Don't be too busy for me .
This is what I want.
Let me equally be the reason why you will always want to fall asleep with your phone in your hands.

Tell me, I just want to know, is it going to be you and I? Tell me.
When last did you check on me?
When last did you care to know how I am fairing?

Please do not wait until I am no more, this is that opportunity you have got, believe me I am telling you.

I need You just like the crops needs the rain.
I just want it to be you and I forever.
I just want to be happy around you.
Do you even care about my happiness?

If I am who you want, where are you then?
Why are you not here?
Why are you this busy?
Why are you always saying you will always be here?
Did you mean them when you said them?

But how can I believe in something I have never seen before?

You might think this is not the real me but just give me some minutes to explain.
Tell me what you want, tell me how you want it, tell me when you want it.
Do you think I am busy too?
Do you think I have pushed you away too?
Do you think I have not been a good friend to you?

Do you think I am harsh and that I am not the kind of a person you Wanted me to be?
Where you thinking it was going to be about you and I?

Tell me too all your Dreams and in case if there is no tomorrow.

But how then do we know when tomorrow will come?
Tomorrow is already here but how sure are we?

Do you think I am lying to you when I said you mean everything to me?

Do you know how much I have been here waiting for you to say you are here too?

Do you even care to know that I am human too and that I have veins running all over my body?
I am still waiting for you to tell me all your dreams.

My name is john and I just want you to motivate and inspire me.

Let today continue to be a beautiful