Story time- how to give me a heart attack

Hi, my name is Maggie and I'm an ovethinker...

So first off, let me admit that I'm a positive person but every time someone says guess what my first thought isn't "We won the lottery" it's more like, "you're dumping me for my sister".

So yesterday my hubby sends me a message and all it says is "liefie" (to those who don't know, my Afrikaans liefie is Afrikaans for love... My hubby is English) so right away my heart drops into my shoes. Guys my husband hates talking to me in my home language. I love it when he does so the moment I saw that, I thought it was going to be followed with I'm in hospital because I hit my head...

Instead he follows that message with "guess what? " I hate those words more than I hate rude people. My heart pretty much stops as I think, It's around lunch time... "Damn, another person wrecked the car again". So I asked and he just sent back no... Don't you hate when people do that?

Pretty annoyed at this game I tell him to just tell me. I'm playful but the guessing game is a pet peeve of mine. I hate it so much that it wants to make me revaluate my relationships with people.

So he tells me the owner of the company called and was really impressed with his work, so impressed that he would be getting yet another raise... I should be happy about that, and I am to a degree. Very proud of my hubby of course but my first thought when he told me was "great, now we'll never leave the country"

My husband is an unqualified software developer so the more his company is willing to pay him, the more likely he is to stay. I felt bad about how I felt and told him everything and he doesn't feel like I'm selfish for wanting to leave.

Am I being selfish for not being fully happy to him?

Xoxo
@thegoldencookie