I can understand now why suicide is such a heavy topic for you @stellabelle. Thanks for sharing this.

I guess in a sense, Laura lives in all of us. After my dad died, my mom told me, "You are him."

I didn't think much of it. I was just like "Oh okay."

But then I realized that in that sense, he continues to live in me; you; us. I understand that part of my mom's love for me now is that she sees him when I am around.

I am sorry to hear about what you're going through now. Please don't hesitate to contact me should you need a listening ear.