Dear Diary: Tomorrow Is My Dialysis And I Am Again Excited About It

I am waterlogged already and it makes me feel heavier and a bit hard with my breathing. I will try to ask again the nurses to adjust my dry weight and if I am lucky enough I will be able to breathe much better because I believe that my dry weight is a few kilograms back.

Until I get to my real dry weight I will just be so breathless and will be unable to eat regular amounts of meals unless I would be dialyzed for three times per week which really is so inconvenient and too expensive plus the fact that I cannot move around much will magnify the inconvenience of it for me and my parents.

I am sad because unfortunately the convenience store that I buy my food from closed temporarily for renovation of their shop and told my mother that they would not open until October the least. So I will not be able to buy my favorite meal during dialysis so it is just frustrating.

I temporarily stopped my medication and will resume it soon. I already knew the cause of my blood pressure crash and it was my medicine. So I will use this opportunity to seek my true dry weight since my blood pressure lately had gone stable and doesn't go down during dialysis.

The problem is that my nurses are afraid of adjusting my dry weight because of BP crash issues so I am having a hard time asking them about it so it makes my life hard in turn because extra water in my body just won't allow me to eat the normal amounts of foods especially water so my efforts remains to be seen and felt.