The world remains the same, but without you, my world is changed for ever. I touch your clothes--your blue silky tie, your flower-printed shirt, your black trouseres--in the suitcase gently like touching my treasure! My love, I miss the past sweet feeling/passion brought by you.
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But sometimes I really really "hate" you! You sudden death in China nearly killed me! The whole world revealed the ferocious features of an orge all of sudden to me. It was all due to your wealthy American family and bloody Chinese school, they bullied me--a poor old girl jointly... If I know I must suffer such kind of anguish and cruelty, my dear, I'd rather not to meet you this life!
I pray I could find a way to erase my memory about you from my mind! However, only God knows how I can forget such kind of unquenchable love to you!
If I am doomed to owe you this life, let me keep writing the poems for you in the rest of my life in order to repay you until you become an eternity, a diety, a myth!