Kudos, glad to see you abdicated and negated your involvement and creation of evil, immorality and chaos in the world. Pawns on the chessboard of global domination are never "good". The illusion of "good" is pervasive in all aspects of our society where people accept the condition and continue to support and fight for it. We so easily lie to ourselves and self-delude ourselves. Consciousness, the #1 problem... sigh.
Take care. Peace.
It's amazing what a little honest introspection can accomplish. I try to be morally consistent in life. I make mistakes sometimes, but this wasn't a hard choice to make. If I don't want to be treated the way the state treats people, why would I ever sign up to continue to do its dirty work?