From Day 69- Do You Have ANXIETY?
Did that title make you anxious?
Today I had a silly experience
with anxiety. I was trimming my nails and something I do quite often is
trim them too short. Well, I was about to clip a toenail and a thought
came up, "You should be careful not to trim that too short." Another:
"You should use the smaller fingernail clipper so you don't cut it too
short." I stopped the thoughts, and continued to trim the nail, making
sure I didn't cut it too short. But, afterwards, I had lingering anxiety
about the situation- "what if I had cut the toenail too short?". There
was no pain, but even if I had cut it too short, there was nothing I could do about it at this point.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be anxious.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry that I am anxious
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being anxious.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to desire to be not anxious
I
forgive myself that I’ve not allowed myself to not realize that I am
anxious about something that ‘could have happened’- instead of seeing,
realizing, and understanding that the thing didn’t happen, and even if
it did, there is nothing I can do about it at this time
When and
as I see myself become anxious, I stop and I breathe. I see, realize,
and understand that being anxious is an emotional reaction about
something that either didn’t happen, happened but I cannot do anything
about it, or happened and I am suppressing the solution of the problem
within me and therefore must take ACTION to fix. I am not anxiety. I can
act to create solutions.
When and as I see myself reacting
within anger at my being anxious, I stop and I breathe. I see, realize,
and understand that reacting to my anxiousness is an indication I am in
my mind.
When and as I see myself fear my anxiousness, I stop
and I breathe. I see, realize, and understand that anxiousness is not
real; it is of and in my mind, and I can stop it within a breath.
When
and as I see myself desire to not be anxious, I stop and I breathe. I
see, realize, and understand that stopping anxiousness requires
breathing, stopping, and redirecting myself within a moment.
I commit
myself to stop anxiety through breathing.
I commit myself to
realize that anxiety is not a solution, but to investigate whether the
problem actually exists (lol), and if it does, if there is anything I
can practically do about it. Otherwise, I commit myself to STOP anxiety
in a single moment of breath.
I commit myself to not become angry when I
am experiencing anxiousness, but to stop, breathe, and ground myself in
my physical reality, to stop the mind and remain here in awareness.
I commit myself to not fear anxiety.
I commit myself to not desire to not be anxious
I commit myself to investigate and stop all forms of anxiety in this world.
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