(I have forgotten who painted this portrait of me....)
This song explores the trauma I experienced from getting involved with a sociopath a few years back. The shame of not judging this person correctly stays with me to this day. This experience was a radical terrorizing moment in my life, and is the cause of massive changes in my trust issues, direction and neural make up. For those of you who have been psychologically trapped into something which you barely comprehended, due to involvement with a psychopath, this is the song for you. May we all be sane and full of love again someday. I have hope for us.....
I did all the music arrangement and singing. I am porting over all my SoundCloud songs to DTube.....
Thanks for listening. This one is particularly funny mixed with lots of pain!
Cheers,
Stellabelle
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It's tough to stop the voices inside our head, telling us "we should have known better" than to trust certain people who turned out to be the hosebeasts from hell. We sit there, questioning whether we're actually as insightful and intuitive as we once believed.
But the thing is, WE SURVIVED.
And the other thing is, most sociopaths have this uncanny ability to be "amazing" and "normal" people for just long enough to lure us in; it's part of their M.O. They can be "all that, and more" for three months, six months, two years... AND THEN...
Bright Blessings!
O dearie thanks for sharing I was also depressed too from a relationship with someone who had bipolar it was crazy, but thank God am fine now ,and the music is great thanks for sharing.
Very good painting post, I am sure that you are an expert in painting art, may you succeed.
Okyy
Hmmmmmmm great... Nice one
Song "psycho Man"... Good music
I really do not think there is anything to be ashamed of, if you decided to stick to someone I believe you did it because you wish him well and hope improvements with occur, it's just sad when a baby gets involved in all I can understand the feeling of guilt that comes with that, everything will definitely get better, nice song though!
I wish your soul to be healed faster. I know how hard this is. That kind of relationship leaves a big wound inside us. But we are strong! We're women! Even when we are bent, we are not broken. I'm sure you'll be able to love and trust again. It just takes time. The time will come and the flowers of your soul will bloom again. In my country I deal with this subject in one of the social networks. I'm not a psychologist. But our sister community is working together to help women who have experienced violence and toxic relationships. And over time, indeed, many come to peace of mind and a better life. I am sure that you will also come to happy days full of love and harmony.
its better to stay single than end up with a psychopath , the life one live is hellish, i know how it feels as i have given advice to lots of them. the bruises, mental treatment all that, stay away don't die because of fake love
good post in dsound keep it up thanks for shareing
After listening to all your song, I can say you are good at this. You always draw your inspiration from what happens to you which serves as lesson to others and gives hope.
You are just an all round woman. Thanks for sharing all the songs
"The shame of not judging"... man... I just had to stop reading at this point.
You should be ashamed of your judgement.
So you found both a "sociopath" AND a "psychopath" in the one and the same being? And you're alive to tell the tale? That's truly F-ing amazing, and you think that these ignorantly wielded notions mean anything more than declaring yourself as such?
Sorry, but I thought there was value here beyond the yappering hen so inclined to demean her peers in an attempt to feel better, I'm unfollowing.
May you find peace with the life that made you into whom you've asked to become! 🙏🙏🙏
And may that peace come at not too steep a price for those that choose to so stay around you...
What a trip. I clicked on the DSound link and for a moment there, I thought I was on SoundCloud.
I don't usually listen to audio while exploring on Steemit, but it was cool to see the vote tally and amount there, too. So now I know what DSound is for.
You damn right!
Dearest @stellabelle
Warning
Sociopath detection alert in the comments of this post.
Don't worry though, he's not following you any more :)
I know how it is. My first two wives were both sociopaths. The manipulation, the mind games of it. Third wife is at least human, I think. So I'm doing better.
Funny song! I like the banjo rif in it. I’mmsure many women can relate to this song. When my parents split up, they both ended up with verbally and physically abusive partners. They both had more babies with said partner too :) I have 4 brothers and 5 sisters from 6 different marriages... And guess what, the apple doesn’t fall from the tree, now I have a girlfriend who’s dating a psycho 😅
How i wish psychopath was written boldly on their foreheads before they manipulate a fragile innocent heart into falling in love
Great painting
One of the worst things that can happen to you. Happened to me, took me more than a decade to untangle. Life will never be the same, but what can you do? There‘s no other way for me than embracing it. Wish I had known that earlier.
You know what. I love you. I always will.
You are an inspiration to so many.
May you receive the energy of love that flows your way each day.
May you continue on your next awesome unstoppable journey into EOS.
I'll always remember your generous advice.
I'll always remember your picnic in KC.
Steem is just the beginning.
But Happy Birthday to Us All
Isn't making music/art the best therapy? And others can heal from it also! I know from experience. One could easily replace 'man' with 'woman' and it rings just as true.
Keep it up! I followed you. Check my art of you have a sec.
Reminds me of something mama said 😂
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