You are brave for sharing this, and I thank you for trusting us. I'd like to tell you that in me you can always find a listening friend, but I know from my own experience that, when we can't even get up to eat or take a shower, talking to people seems like a daunting task. Still, I'm here if you ever need to talk to a friendly stranger who might have been through similar things.
I checked all the boxes, and it pains me to admit it. But I know to take it one day at a time, hell, even one minute at a time, and to remember to be kind to myself.
I'm very glad you've found ways to know yourself better and work your way through difficult times. Well done. Remember to be kind to yourself, @squirrelacus!
Thank you for your kind words. Just know that there is somebody who is willing is sometimes the greatest gift somebody can ever give someone. I am sorry that you to have struggled with your own battles. This is a two way street. So if you ever need somebody to talk to please feel free to contact me. I am a great listener. And I often find it easier to help others then to help myself.