She, death, impetuous.

in Reflections23 days ago





Today I tell, a part of her story, about the map that traced the path, the journey, with agile shortcuts, to learned events that left indelible traces of memories of Her, death, impetuous.

She, comes hard, difficult and complex, to attenuate the pains of collapsed bodies.

She, who reveals the many mysteries that life continues to mean, and who removes the veil from the banal to feel the essential.

To accompany in the good dying when the person has years in psychological therapy hurts more than when they arrive only to accompany them “to another dimension.

Thank you for everything you revealed about yourself.

Thank you for the courage to dive in all your waters, despite the fear we both had, my friend.

As human beings, we have to be sensitive, open, receptive... crying to them also does us good, makes us more human from vulnerability.

It is hard for me to talk about her... I also took my time to feel the pain, the helplessness and frustration (rage).

The last thing we talked about was exactly that“ "To look at his departure as a childbirth, a birth to another dimension. To align her mind, her body, her emotions and to release everything that was holding her to this dimension."

Thank you, Magaly, beautiful soul, for freeing yourself from so much pain and trusting. She always talks to me about living in the present, appreciating what is there instead of wondering about what is missing.

She always said, about her unavoidable death.

One day I went to sleep healthy "that's what I thought", and the next day I woke up being sick, and now I'm on the verge of "HER".

Today, I feel nostalgic for my own life, but grateful for so many wonderful things that I still have to live.

What time has taught me and many times and this is how I have felt is that I am in the wrong place, that I should be doing something else, although my professional career developed wonderfully, I had more and more opportunities and from the bottom of my heart I am very grateful for everything that happened in my profession and how I was trained and that has led me here.

I must achieve this, I must go there, I have to go much faster, I am very slow and in the end I realized that it was my dialogue in my head with myself, that in truth I am where I have to be with the people I have to be and learn from there and live the present beyond my inner dialogue or call someone else, I learned this while I was sick.

Now that everything is on time, there is no hurry.

And that's why I take you carefully, but I try not to let fear get too involved in the care.

I want to choose some of the memories that I want to leave your friend, I want you to feel the heartbeat of the world in everything that inhabits it. I want you to love life.

Furthermore, I just know that I've lived much longer than I have left and that's a lot, it's beautiful to be able to continue the path.

Nothing is under control, nothing is perfect and that's okay...


She, death, resignifies the bonds, gives new and deeper meaning to the affections.

Magaly, how I wish you were still around to chat, and have a coffee with milk, cake, and listening the sweet sound of piano keys, celebrating nothing special, just a farewell brewing little by little, I just realized.

What I want most is that, wherever you are, it is in peace, enjoying yourself and your other life.

Janitze





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