Sometimes, in silence, we find new forms of creativity, new ways of connecting previously scattered pieces. The imagination has not been lost; He has simply found new ways to express himself, and you realized it…

When there is silence, there is nothing created in my head. I sat in a deprivation chamber type of thing (float chamber) for 45 minutes and while relaxing, I saw nothing, unless I generated it manually.

because with the loss of my 10-year-old daughter, the world came crashing down on me and I spent three years wasting away until Matthew was born

This gives you purpose in many ways, and perhaps you would have found purpose with him arriving. But, it is good to live with a reason to keep on living, though many people don't seem to find much else except to be entertained.