The answer is, I suppose, that this is depression. 
Wow, that is such a powerful blog post! I feel like you are speaking straight to me, even though we have never met before. Hi, I am @frittro, and I've recently started watching the newly created content on the 
HIVE social blockchain for any mention of the word "diabetes", as I am helping to start up this new 
Hive Diabetes Peer Support (HDPS) Community.
But there is more to me than just being a Type 
diabetic. I also have 
autism, chronic 
heart issues, and, yes, 
mental health issues as well. I often make a joke about the interaction between these issues that I face, it goes something like this...
The heart says that it needs more exercise. I should go for a run!
The 
diabetes says yes, exercise is good, but I need to check my blood sugar level as well.
The autism thinks that this is a great opportunity to make some more graphs and statistics!
The depression says, "%&@# it, I'm off back to bed! You lot do what you like."
Haha.
I don't think modern medicine can help me.
When it comes to the depression, I too have come to the same conclusion. The medical profession, including psychiatrists and psychologists, have practically given up on me. The medications they give me have no effect whatsoever on my mood, no matter what they try. I do respond well with a social worker though, and I used to attend a community support centre called Te Ata, but that was in those pre-COVID days that are now becoming dim memories.
Your post has been curated by @frittro of the Hive Diabetes Peer Support (HDPS) Community. We are a new HIVE Community created recently, and officially launched on 1-Apr-2022, here on the social blockchain and on 
Discord. Our goal is to become a place to discuss your own or a loved one's experience of diabetes, for shared mutual peer support and encouragement.
@diabetes-support Thank you for your thoughtful comment and curation. I am finding it hard to respond properly to comments these past couple of days. It is challenging to have multiple issues at once. It sounds like you have more than I do, but I have a few.
Right now, I would really like to crawl under a rock. But I would have to lift it first, which would be too much.
!LUV
I understand. I have days like that myself.
When I feel like that, one thing that I have found helpful for myself is just getting out into nature. A quiet walk alone at a beach, or in the forest, really helps to centre me. Sometimes I just go to our local park and spend the day sitting under a tree. Being outside in the fresh air and daylight is beneficial, simple, and free. That is what works for me, anyway.
@harlowjourney(1/3) gave you LUV.
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I also live with autism spectrum disorder, and this is not always the case.
Once I was diagnosed with dysthymia, which is a chronic form of depression, but it simply disappeared one day, and I found happiness. I have not took any medications. Maybe you do not need it either.
Nowadays I live with a Harris's hawk, and she gives me more happiness and more love than anything else in this world nowadays.
Maybe an animal would help you too.
Have a nice day. All the best. Greetings and much love from Hungary.
Indeed, that is the very meaning of the word "spectrum". No two
For various reasons, we can't have pets in our home at present. In the past though, I have responded well with a pet in my life. I do look forward to again being able to have a pet, one day.