Oh god! i feel you so bad, every letter. Sometimes i can't control my mind and keep repeating the same things over and over.

as it is easy to slip a little further into disconnection and depression

Look, I don't know, I don't know how to explain it but sometimes I'm not in the places where my body is, like being with a bunch of people and they could be talking and I'm not there, I'm not paying attention to what they say, nor to the surroundings, and sometimes silly thoughts creep into my head. And I feel like I've been conditioned to be like this because of the things that I do, for example, my job, my life in general, the fear of taking a real step to change.

There is this cultural movement to "love yourself the way you are"

I feel you there, because our minds are weak we are easy to manipulate, but in this case for me it is the opposite because I love myself it is that I assist the orthodontist to change the current shape of my crooked teeth or because I love myself I am going to cut my hair or paint it, if I want to exercise to lose weight it is because I love myself, it is good to love yourself as you are, but wanting to improve that version that you already love or really want to love, is more important than what society thinks about how i should love myself

Some, no matter how good conditions might be, might never be content, never enjoy, because their mental condition is poor.

Well this is truth, I could say that I have many moments of weakness because they are not all, but there are moments when I cannot enjoy it and it is as if I were immersed in misery and I have tried logically and rationally to find an explanation and I reached a somewhat far-fetched conclusion and it is because maybe I'm not consistently doing what I really want to do, how I want to live, or because I haven't been able to bring about the change I need and it's like I'm discouraged by default.

Of course I live trying to take steps, even small ones, to transform what I have.