I used to think I was not having regrets until that accident happened. That kind of life changing event simply can't be imagined or simulated in the head, even thought I used to imagine catastrophes regularly as a kid and a teen. I certainly wish I did things differently and am trying to change now, but feeling tired regularly really makes it hard. I'm certainly trying to evaluate how I use my time more often and if I'm wasting it. Worrying that I might lose someone next to an accident is simply counter productive. Some people might be motivated, but anxiety is the very opposite. Sorry for rambling, got a bit emotional.

Again, I'm so sorry for your loss :(