People tend to take their mental capacity for granted, but I have always been astonished by how nuanced, individual, and flexible neurology can be.
I see mom starting to stress out about short term memory loss and she brings up examples and I stare back at her telling her that's what I've been dealing my whole life with and she doesn't understand how that can be true, as she considers me to be 'smarter' than her in a lot of ways, but I try to tell her that I never stressed about my struggles of recall, as I have always found other workarounds, other ways to cope and get done what needs to be done.
I am also highly aware that my mental capacity varies HIGHLY from day to day. One day I can easily manage challenging tasks, the other I can get lost in the simplest of things. I've learned to take meticulous notes on the good days, as I don't know on which days I'll need a mental hand-holding from my 'better' self.
Being judged for your mental capabilities as compared to the average is pointless. I know for sure that I wouldn't want to have an average or dare say neurotypical brain, as I doubt it would be beneficial to me. I have my own weird brain. And sure I forget words, and typically think in an incomprehensible mix of 3 languages, but I like it. It's mine. It has its ups and downs and quirks, but I wouldn't trade it for anything.
Since I've always been interested in how the brain works, once I heard about neurofeedback I thought it would be something really interesting to try out, but once I heard that it is based on some sort of 'average' 'normal' brain red flags immediately popped up for me, like wait, hold up, hold up.. I don't want to be zombified into an average, no matter what I presume I'm struggling with.
~Josie~
Years ago I was struggling with a lot of basic memory things, but it was a poorly functioning thyroid that was causing it. Now it is a poorly functioning brain:)
Do you ever forget to take notes? :D
Averages are funny things. My friend was told her children's brains weren't developing fast enough because their heads were too small and under average. Yet, they never considered that the children Filipino decent, not Finnish. Averages are useless without actually looking at who is being compared.
Well, yes, of course, and then the next time I swear at myself profusely for not knowing any better. xD
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This would be me - every time.
I find that the worst thing is when something seems so difficult that I don't even check if I have any notes to follow.. a sense of defeat before even trying all options.
Either way what I mean to say - your frustration is totally understandable, but neuroplasticity is still a thing, and the fact that you challenge yourself to the point of frustration only means that you're actually creating new neural pathways (which is always an exhausting and challenging task).
So whenever you feel like giving up is when you need to reassure yourself that if you see it through, it will have helped.. because that frustrating feeling of a mental fog is only a neuron reaching out and trying its best to find another neuron to connect to.
And then it is important to reinforce that new connection. Rehearse, repeat.. because - use it or lose it..
Much !LUV
~Josie~
Yeah, I am not giving up - but I am disappointed that I am not going to get any professional support for this now. It is a pity.
You got this! ^^
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