I know he would not have held it against me that I was a stupid kid sometimes, like most. I also understand that he knew what I did for him later in life, to some degree anyway. I'm a reflection of him now; his legacy lives on in me and my thoughts and deeds. I feel like I'm a good person mostly and I have him to thank for that.
I think, no father hold against their kids unless the kids try to hurt them directly - unfortunately, we realize only when we become father and its always true across generations.
Thanks for your comment. I'm not a parent so am probably a little clueless in some matters. I was a son though and had a pretty good dad; I suppose that's why I feel so bad about a few things I could have done differently.