How, I Have Grown

You know those things in life, that you know you should be doing, but they just doesn't happen. Reading different articles, watching documentaries, chatting with friends and perhaps most importantly, listening to our intuition. That advice that you really wish you could follow, but life gets in the way. Plus you are not on that path yet, so you store it away in your mind, knowing it will happen one day.

My life has gotten so much more busier. As my girls have grown and I now am able to work outside our home. This time last year, I was not long back from Ireland after my father had passed away and I wanted to try and get some work. As my girls grow, so too, do their needs. Which means I needed to earn more money. So I put the word out there. Told everyone I knew, that I was looking for work and I also advertised a little bit as well.

Then a few weeks later, I got offered a job, caring for a wonderful woman, who had been in an accident and needed a carer as she was confided to her bed for 6 weeks. I was really happy to help and be with her every morning for those six weeks. Making enough money to assist my daughter, in going to Japan.

Then after that, the odd job came here and there. Not so much in the summer months, which was ideal really, as my eldest was away for 6 weeks, so she couldn't be here to look after her sisters, if I was working. But then as it began to cool down, I got more work. A regular care job, some cleaning and gardening. It's a lot really. I've already written about how overwhelmed I was feeling at times.

Trying to balance my time, time to be mum, to be a home keeper, animal carer, alongside working, and trying to find time for myself. I can remember the last time, I was this busy. Always on the go, on the move. Finding moments here and there, to rest a little.

I could easily, lose myself, feeling overwhelmed, by my current life. If I spend my time, focusing on the amount of hours I am working. The busyness. But instead, I just get on with it. I just do it. Everyday I get up and just do it. Walk 2 hours a day, to and from work. Then off to some of my cleaning jobs and gardening work. Today I went to visit a beautiful piece of land with two properties, that I will be taking care off. Mainly the watering and strimming. Especially coming into and during the summer time. The gentleman asked, if I wanted to start a vegetable garden, one that I share with them, which is something I am excited about.

I finally, have been able to just step into the flow of my life. To just go with it. To surrender.