Thanks Galen.
There is certainly some work to be done in practicing lifting heavy shit, but I've done it in the past and will do so again I'm sure.
As the garbled text above testifies, I'm still a bit pissed off with the whole thing but am working on ways to accept heavy shit happens and that forgiveness (to myself and others) should lead the way to lighter things.
Cheers.
You're on the right track mate. Sometimes it's bumpy, but you're moving forward and that's what counts.