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RE: I Can't Believe I'm Doing This

in #life8 months ago (edited)

It's showing a split and the colors matter. What's fucked is I didn't know Hive would be red. There's a side profile of a face looking to the right (right way) but it's mostly transparent.

I will be different for each individual yes. Most won't see what I put there and it is designed to play tricks on the eyes.

And the only way I can do that naturally is by allowing my own eyes to play tricks on me, then I paint the illusions. I'm basically allowing a part of our brains we don't control to create it.

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Yeah, it's interesting how you say it's done, a reflection of the mind of the person doing it. My dad used to do some abstract work, as a kid I didn't like it (understand it) but as I got older I started seeing things in there and it (now) gives me an indication into who my dad was at that point, who he'd been, what he went through in WW2 and beyond. Interesting huh? The mind I mean.

I'm fascinated with the mind. My mind. The minds of others. I can remember the day when I was a kid and discovered my internal monologue. Became an explorer that day dude.

I get it...and I think that makes a difference to a person...being able to explore one's mind with honesty and use it to one's advantage, even if that advantage is simple pleasure or happiness. There's so many (here and in the real world) who seem to shy away from that internal exploration or, at least, deny what they see rather than own it.

The mind is powerful. And it kicks my ass if I'm not careful. I fucked up twenty years ago. Bing! "Here's your reminder!" Then I'm scrambled. Have to force it out. *Bing! "Here's another one!". In split seconds I'm reliving hours of turbulence. That's why I'm so damn quick on the draw when the shit goes down. I need to fix this or it's going to fuck me. And I get fucked anyway lol.

Hmm, yeah I understand completely, we seem to have had similar experiences although triggered by different events and happenings I guess.

I have seen some recent comment threads and I wonder sometimes why you get so invested, at least from the commenting perspective. I prefer to ignore it I guess, I don't have the time or inclination and it seems no matter how logical a comment or perspective is, those that want to skew or avoid it, will do so in preference to their own ideologies. I don't have time for it. I'm happy to discourse of course, but I prefer not to get too involved. I can quick on the draw but tend to follow the you bring knife to fight, I bring M777 howitzer and a fuck load of HE rounds. Lol. Best to just ignore and proceed elsewhere. I just wrote a post about it yesterday, about small people doing small things.

You're a good chap, it's clear to see, and a lot of people think it. Just saying.

Because I always see that little bit of good in people they're trying to stash away while hopelessly cornered into their own narratives, while also considering the fact they have onlookers requiring a good impression as well and must meet those demands. I know it's going to be tough and delicate but I still try.

I have managed to talk people down from that ledge before. I'm not into punishment. I'm into helping. And yes, it backfires. And yes, I end up looking like the asshole.

I've seen you in tight spots. That last time we spoke. I was cooling you down. You needed it.

Oh yeah man, I've been in some spots, it happens and I think it's best to confront it, admit it, that's the way forward. Some prefer to hide from their problems, even if their problem is themselves.